Birthday BBQ Bash

Disclaimer: I LOVE BIRTHDAY'S!! Probably a little too much.  My mom says, "Sometimes your birthday is just another day, and you have to be okay with that."  Sorry mommy, but no you don't. You can run around your backyard naked (check) You can roller-blade through WalMart (check) and you can have your cake and eat it too (check check and double check).

 We had a BBQ at my house and the weather was perfect, the food was perfect, and the company was surprisingly entertaining! JK, I love my family.  That's truly all I wanted was to be surrounded by family, and my other mother Debbie aka Nanie got to stay with us for a couple days too to help me with Isla during the wedding.  She deserves a big THANK YOU, and more hugs to come.

 This is me being wild, because that's what you do on your birthday :)

 My Uncle Karl and Aunt Denise got me this fabulous hat, and Travy-pants (trying to escape behind me) got me those awesome sun-g's! What a perfect B-day I had! I've already decided that next year I'm running away...from 30! Yikes. I hope I stay 29 forever.

Who Doesn't LOVE a Spring Wedding?

Last Friday I had the privilege of going to Madeline Jackson's wedding in the Salt Lake Temple.  I got up early that morning and headed over to her hotel room to do her hair. After too much chatting we ran out of time, and had to rush to get hair and make-up done.  She looked beautiful! It was so fun to just sit in the sealing room, listen to the covenants they were making and see how in love they were! The flowers were beautiful, the day was sunny, and I just soaked it all up! Enjoy! 

 The hair....

Quick Trip to I.F.

Soooo...I got the itch to go to Idaho Falls.  My friend Annie (whose middle name Isla holds) had a baby girl and I wanted nothing more than to hold that little bean! I snuggled her almost the whole time I was there! It was heaven! I didn't get a picture though. I'm mad I forgot that (as I documented the rest of my trip) which goes as follows:

 Singing (screaming?) Augustana's "20 Years" until my mouth hurts, while I drive through the farmlands...no one knows where I'm from...

 City center in sight! I drove past my old house and my heart swelled with homesickness! I might have shed a tear or two, but then I was brave and kept driving to Annie's.

 Picked up my other half- Marci Dimick and went to the Hairshow! Apparently when you reach your late 20's to early 30's, the music seems to loud, you can't see as good as you once used to and you yawn all through the show trying to find the 21yr version of yourself that could stay up all hours of the night. Yikes! We had fun!

 Marci and I...sure do miss her.

I have to add that I stayed at my parents for Easter, and Tim made an appearance which was wonderful! We had an amazing dinner, and easter egg hunt! Then on Monday night Chelsea and I went on a date to Firehouse and then ICE SKATING!! I totally recommend it! They had music, lights, and pina colada scented dry-ice smoke! We had fantastic time! So, long story short that was probably one of the best weekends I've had in as long as I can remember!

What I've been up to these days.....

Life has been busy...and I have been wound a bit too tight. So, I:

 Watched these...

 Mowed this...

 ...and smelled these. Ahhhhh! That's better!

Goings On

Well, to tell you the truth I've been on a bit of a hiatus because of unforeseen trials that snuck up on me, but I'm not sure I want to post about it just yet.  I almost feel like it's taboo, and maybe a little too tender/spiritual for the whole world to read.

On a much happier note, I have gained new perspective and am enjoying life...every minute of it!  My Cousin got married last week and had a fantastic reception.  There was an endless supply of cupcakes, fruit and candy, but the best part was the dancing!! So after the bride and groom shared their first dance, it was time for the father-daughter dance.  It started out so sweet, and it almost makes you want to cry to see a dad dancing with his daughter that he has just "given away" BUT THEN...rap music and the two of them dancing a choreographed hip-hop dance that seriously almost made me pee my pants! I was laughing so hard! I totally didn't expect that.  Her dad and her had been practicing in the garage for weeks. Ahhhh, I loved it!  Isla danced her pants off and ate tons of candy and chased the disco lights on the floor, so pretty much it was her best day ever too! 

                                        Karl and Denise (my Aunt and Uncle)

Tim cried when I told him it was time to go

The famous father-daughter dance

Us (my mom must have been drunk when she took this! Hehe, jk mom!)

Puzzle-mania

 It all started with this circle farm foam puzzle...the love of her life.  She couldn't get enough of this thing.  She would drag it around from room to room.

 Then she found these lovelies with my school stuff.  I bought these at Alco in Dillon MT while visiting Nick and Ashley's Grandma and Grandpa because I was taking boards in a couple of months and was going to use them to study.  I didn't want Isla to play with them because I thought, what's the point? She'll never figure it out! Well long story short she conquered "The Encephalon" and has now just finished "The Digestive System"!! Holy Moly kids are smarter than we think they are!

Out with the OLD, in with the NEW???

 This is what Tim sent out to all his friends on New Years! Ya, I know!

 We did a little trimmy-trim...much better wouldn't you say? In fact I told him he resembled David Grohl now! Wooo Woooo! Well maybe not really, but at least he stopped looking like that guy on "Dinner For Schmucks" am I right?

More Christmas Pics...

 I thought this turned out funny...my "believe" crown, and Isla constantly running away while we take pictures.

 Who wouldn't fall in love with Lewiston, UT with this breathtaking picture?...

 ...and this

..and this! Ha!

Christmas Time!

We had Christmas at my parents house this year.  It was pretty amazing.  It was fun to see Isla's face when she opened some of her gifts! These are just the pics from my parents camera, I will post more from my phone when I get home :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

More than just a pretty face

Turns out there's more to this handsome man than beautiful brown locks and big brown eyes.  He came home just as I was publishing my last post, and for some reason I was crying.  I can't help it.  Maybe I'm too dramatic, but I like to think of it as being passionate ;)
He sat me down and listened and sympathized and offered really good advice and insights.  We ended up blaming my mom for most of my problems (haha) and talked about how I'm not the only one who gets discouraged.  He told me that he was sure Heavenly Father was pleased with my efforts, and that I do need to recognize my weaknesses, but take them with patience and optimism.  I was taking steps back, not forward.  Another thing we recognized was how I do a lot of things out of fear.  Fear should never be a motivating factor (using the Lord as an example again) it should be out of LOVE. 
I really felt better, and as I was doing my 14 day walk with Christ packet I answered the question about trusting the Lord and calling upon him with this:
"I feel like I trust him when things are really difficult and I don't understand why at the time, but on day to day things like I posted about yesterday...no.  I don't call upon him for the mundane because for some reason I think I should be able to figure it all out on my own...BUT, I am working on it.  I will keep a prayer constantly in my heart, and trust his guidance especially with the day to day.  I feel better about the direction I am going and I am optimistic about the future."  

P.S. My mom called and said it was probably all her fault. Ha! Turns out the apple really doesn't fall far from the tree.  I assured her my faults were my own, and she is amazing!

If a had a therapist, this is what I'd say :)

So I know the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem, but what's the next step? And the step after that?  I can't stand a dirty house.  I will stay up cleaning, and I literally cannot relax until my list of a million things is done...and my house is clean.  Then, I get really stressed out and I crash, and I'm mean.  The only thing worse than being too hard on yourself is being too hard on others, (especially those you love) and to tell you the truth I'm guilty!  I took this picture, because I wanted to embrace the fact that I didn't clean the living room before Isla took her nap.  I sat down with a book, and tried to read but couldn't, and got up and cleaned and took the burners off the stove and scrubbed the oven too.  WHAT is wrong with me??? 

 I listened to the Christmas Devotional and after hearing Pres. Uchtdorf"s talk I promised myself I would focus on Christ and not be crazy this year.  I even got a packet of 14 days of scriptures to read about Christ with questions to ponder.  I've only done 1!!! Tim reeeeaaaaaalllly wanted to put together treats for the neighbors and family and he wanted 5 different things in them.  After fighting all night Sunday I agreed with his promise to help clean-up.  He did help, but the next day I still had to make one more batch of brownies, and go grocery shopping, to the post-office, cut and wrap all the treats and clean a disaster of a kitchen.  It completely wore me out.  Never again. 

 Do we even know this many people?

I made caramels, marshmellow nut clusters, and batch of brownies.  Tim made mint brownies by default because I burnt the crap out of my hand stirring his peanut butter fudge (which he made totally on his own except for me stirring while he sprayed the pan with butter.)
I'm sorry but next year everyone is getting only marshmellow nut clusters, or I'm just buying boxes of chocolates! Ha!

Anyway, my soul really has been heavy. I want to simplify, but I feel like I'm fighting my own self to find balance.  I guess it's a process...and yes, I'm very much aware of it so that's something, right? 

Thanksgiving Blah Blah

                                      Isla played dress-up with Grace (cousin) they were best-friends

                                                                   Rainbow Gardens

So I don't really want to re-hash Thanksgiving because it was a super hard couple weeks full of Isla and I being sick and throwing up at Tim's parents in Price while he worked 14-18hrs a day at the Huntington Power plant because something blew-up.  Then we had crazy windstorm '11 in Bountiful and played the waiting game to go home because we didn't have power.  Then we got the ok, but really our house still didn't have power, so I called my Aunt and Uncle who just live in the Avenues by the Capitol if we could stay there.  They were so kind even though Karl was leaving to Mexico and Denise was expecting company the next day! So we packed up and headed to my parents and came home Sunday when the power FINALLY came on! Our house was freezing, yet all our food in the fridge was spoiled! Yuck. Anyhoo not my most favorite memories, but visitng family was great! I feel closer to Tim's mom and my sis-in-law now, and I had a great chat with my Aunt and Uncle, and my parents got to see Isla (they were missing her).  Another great thing, is that Isla has turned a new leaf.  I guess being packed around to 70 different places in two weeks made her a bit more easy-going! Ha! She has been really good since we got home...not as needy! Anyhoo, I met my mom and 2nd cousin at Rainbow Garden the other day and had a great time then Debbie (Tim's mom) watched Isla while we went to "round two" of the Forgotten Carols.  Best. Day. Ever.  I love the mundane now too.  No more craziness for me please.

The joys of motherhood

In my world of blogging I like to write about the good, the bad, and the ugly.  Today you're going to get a little from each category!

So to preface, I have to tell you that Isla has been getting her "eye" teeth in...is that right? Anyhoo, it's been about 2 months of screaming at me everytime I leave the room or try and go to the bathroom, and I'm not allowed to shower! Ha! She is super sensitive and needy anyway and this has intensified since teething. We have our good days and bad days.  Well, this day I was pushed to the limit, so I decided to just get in the tub and she could yell at me all she wanted.  I got in and she waddled to her room and played all by herself.  I was amazed! I enjoyed that soak! I got out to find that she had gotten in her garbage pail and opened up her diapers all over her room! AHH! As I was cleaning that up she went into the bathroom and unrolled the toliet paper. AHH! So I got that cleaned up. Then I noticed a wet spot every time she sat down...she exploded up to her armpits and I was once again going to have to mop up her room and get her in the tub! AHH!  So we got that cleaned up, and I went downstairs to put her poopy clothes in the wash, and Morgan aka Devil Cat had tipped over some fabric Christmas trees I just finished for my mom that were made using spilt peas...yep! Peas all over the carpet and one broken Christmas tree! When I saw that I really didn't know if I should laugh or cry! I sat on the floor while Isla screamed at the top of the stairs and thought, "I must need some refining!"  I needed more patience, love and understanding.  Isla didn't feel well, and it's not her fault.  I can spare a little more time each day holding her and reading to her. My house doesn't have to share hospital grade cleanliness every day, and the Lord can help whenever I ASK.  So, now with the help of the Lord, I'm trying to have more charity towards my FAMILY!! I had been praying for charity, but forgetting it matters most within the walls of my own home. I love being a mommy.  I love seeing Isla's little face each morning and kissing her soft cheeks.  I love how she dances to anything with a beat, and how she is constantly trying to do whatever Tim and I are doing.  I would be lost without my little Isla, and for sure without the help of the Lord, and my Tim! I love them all!  

Guilt-Free Banana Bread

I felt I had to redeem myself from the whole "I eat chocolate cupcakes" post! Ha! I love banana bread, and I want to eat it without feeling guilty, AND I really do try and eat pretty healthy, I just have an addiction to baking, so I'll stop this run-on sentence and let you in on my guilt-free banana bread!

P.S. My friend Katie Berry was talking about doing a recipe-swap blog, so here's my entry.  If anyone has any recipes they love please post them! I'm always looking for a new great recipe, or if you have found ways to make yummy things more healthy!!

Ingredients:

1/2 cup butter, melted

1 cup honey

2 eggs

1 teaspoon vanilla extract

1 1/2 cups + 2 tablsp. unbleached flour (more protien, less chemically processed)

1 teaspoon baking soda

1/2 teaspoon salt

1/2 cup greek yogurt

1/2 cup chopped walnuts

2 medium bananas


Directions

1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Grease a 9x5 inch loaf pan, or I do 2 pans that are a bit smaller, so my loaves aren't as big...Portion control!!!

2. In a large bowl, mix together the melted butter and honey. Add the eggs and vanilla, mix well. Then add the mushy banana's and mix.  I like lumps, so just mix until it looks good to you :) Combine the flour, baking soda and salt, stir into the mixture. Finally, fold in the greek yogurt and walnuts. I like to save some walnuts to sprinkle on top too.  Spread evenly into the prepared pan(s).

3. Bake at 350 degrees F (175 degrees C) for 45-55 minutes, or until a toothpick inserted into the center of the loaf comes out clean. If you are doing 2 loaves, cook for about 23-30 mins.  Cool loaf or loaves in the pan for 10 minutes before removing to a wire rack to cool completely.