He sat me down and listened and sympathized and offered really good advice and insights. We ended up blaming my mom for most of my problems (haha) and talked about how I'm not the only one who gets discouraged. He told me that he was sure Heavenly Father was pleased with my efforts, and that I do need to recognize my weaknesses, but take them with patience and optimism. I was taking steps back, not forward. Another thing we recognized was how I do a lot of things out of fear. Fear should never be a motivating factor (using the Lord as an example again) it should be out of LOVE.
I really felt better, and as I was doing my 14 day walk with Christ packet I answered the question about trusting the Lord and calling upon him with this:
"I feel like I trust him when things are really difficult and I don't understand why at the time, but on day to day things like I posted about yesterday...no. I don't call upon him for the mundane because for some reason I think I should be able to figure it all out on my own...BUT, I am working on it. I will keep a prayer constantly in my heart, and trust his guidance especially with the day to day. I feel better about the direction I am going and I am optimistic about the future."
P.S. My mom called and said it was probably all her fault. Ha! Turns out the apple really doesn't fall far from the tree. I assured her my faults were my own, and she is amazing!
